Never mind...

Vertigo they say is a disorder of the brain in which one feels dizzy, its bad to have it..i dnt agree to it..man i wish i had it somehow n thn engage in a flight of dreams never heard nvr seen nver felt. Surest way to being excited beyond a point of no return is this feeling along wiht th feeling of becoming one with th tunes of nature..njoying th minuscules of laughter., and thn heading towards anever ending passage of metamorphosis of the mind. Vertigo is the place all shud be, to allow oneself th freedom of thought beyond thought n thinking in a way like u nvr hav n nvr will, self producing meaninglessness of worried down dark secrets n returning to th world of th dead. U wanna run to it n still cnt reach it, u wanna hide but u r already seen, its like the feeling of being not sure whethr ur dreaming or still awake....ever had tht. Its wht keeps one thinking to go beyond th fucking human trials n tribulations n to think abt a life without th ideation of belongingness, of living, of searching, of engaging, of feeling.....Misery they say is th man's second best friend n how true it stands. i hav been trying to but in vain, as sugar coated as it seams its simply blinding n behaving in a self improved cathartic feeling of vengeance..Blood thirsty n gut wrenching it speaks, a two edged sword, u get cut in some or th other way..