Man its tiring to always keep on comprehending your past, and its essence. I could do that forever, all day long. But it dosent do me any good except for the fact that it occasionaly makes me cry, which is good i think. But when you start to find the deeper and higher meanings you come to the conclusion that you cannot justify it just by knowing the past, but rather living the present and then probably analysing a part of you, that is hidden, destroyed, inhibited or forgotten. When you achieve that you will find that there is nothing more secure and obscure than that.
Although i would add that certain things will definitely make you wanna kill yourself but that can be overcome given the fact, not all judgement arises from good but rather good done to you by others. Making you think and rethink the idea of obscurity and then having to match your thoughts on that wavelength, which is even tougher but you will achieve eventually and make the most out of it seeking deeper prospects of sureshot success. Only to be established by an already existing idea and thus allwoing yourself the freedom, justice, pathos, energy, solitude. etc. that one needs to find the right kind of answers. Thus making contemplate the justice of your soul.
