Tuesday, December 2, 2014

Nonchalant Doubt















Every dream has been smoldered to ashes
Every idea reduced to dust
My thoughts fear every new idea that enters...
For fear of losing the very idea.

I come across people who gather excuses, hatred and self-pity
They wile and cry and seek refuge in sympathy
I echo their feelings and wonder often whether theirs is real or mine?

Reality has become a mirage
Tortured by sights of greener pastures...
But they ain't green,
They’re just a shade darker than the shade of dejection.

Emptiness has been a pal for so long now;
I seek her comfort in all my blissful moments...
Moments that last for an eon.

Every twitching of the skin is penetrated by pitiful conversations,
They provide a scatter of lifeless comfort.

A tireless stare is compressed in the soothing air.
An evil breadth disguised as care

Creatures roam around who call themselves ‘human’
They hardly wait and never really bother
To watch the little red blossom bloom into the air.

How ironic is their existence really!

All you imagined are thoughts that took shape in some way.
They recoil and make you wonder.
Whether they are there or away from your gaze!

Sometimes I think it’s meaningless to think that a meaning would arrive with a warm embrace.
And on most nights I still say a grace.

Because you were honest
You paid the price....
A price so great it’s been etched into your every hair...

Your future will not endure...
The many unclaimed challenges of your past.

Your present is a blink in the stark reality of life
And it doesn't possess the strength to withstand...

Rebukes, abuse, fatal bruise or a simple misuse.


Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Situational Moments
















Unchanging over the years
Moments of calm are rare
Moments of confusion are more
It never ceases even during the sleep…

How ridiculous a life to be let down
By trivial thoughts and mundane feels
You hold on to tomorrow but let go of the real
Reality knocks every day, you never let her in…

She spreads her wings and lodges in;
Still you try to run from her.
She doesn't force herself on you
She allows you your space
Your little life stuck in a haze

That’s when the mind spaces change
They undergo a catharsis of shame
Bewildered you seek refuge in sleep
But sleep’s an ally and only makes you meek

Seeking and meeking you reach the cornerstone of life
A river calms you down much more than you could in years
That’s when you understand how trivial you are and…
How grand everything else is.

From that grandness erupts a silent volcano of knowledge
Only subtle enough for the subtlest,
Lest you grab it with both hands
It makes no sound while gushing – your senses have again failed you at the most crucial time.

But you never lose hope
Speaking of which, they say hope is what sticks the world together
But it must be ironic as hope isn't that hopeful herself
So, how is it that others have put their faith on her so wholeheartedly?

That is a lesson no one teaches
Specially not your parents and your teachers
They themselves have not found any answers to it,
And yet feet that they know something about it.

Humans are a species so full of potential
But they are more full with self-doubt
That’s probably nature’s way of ensuring that they don’t start believing that the are really the true masters of the cosmos

Bu then as humans believe anything that is absurd


They also believe anything that is a fleeting memory.